Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Support system

I find it really difficult to excel in life when you aren't backed one-hundred percent by the people that you most need support from. This weekend wasn't all that great other then the fellowship of family and friends, but when I tried to talk to my parents about going back to school for interior design, and it hasn't even been 4 four weeks since my graduation with a degree in graphic design, well their comments were less then encouraging. I know that my parents mean well in everything they do for me, but its hard to tell them what I'm wanting to do when they don't understand why it is what I want to do.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

just saying hi

so I haven't posted in a couple of days, and I just thought I would drop a line and say hey to everyone out there who reads my post. Hopefully this weekend will leave me with some exciting rants and/or post because I know here lately they have been really boring.

Later People :)

Sunday, June 27, 2004


Ok so finally I got moved, kind of upset because I had to leave Charlotte, but not to worry I will hopefully be back in good ole Charlotte in a couple of months. Sorry for the boring post. On a side note, thanks for all the post every had made.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

hot damn

3rd post of the day.....guess i'm making up for lost time.

Anyways I'm thinking about getting my nose pierced...nothing big, something really small. Tell me what you think.

just a random post...

So I've been packing all day long.....I never realized how much shit I had in this apartment. What really sucks is that I have to unpack pretty much all of it in like two days to only have to pack everything back up in a couple of months...Craziness. So yeah just wanted to share that..haha.

Friends Forever?

Graduation is always a very special occasion in a person's life. They have succeeded one chapter of their life and are now moving on to start a new one. One thing that I am starting to notice about my graduations are the lack of communication me and my friends have. When I graduated from high school slowly but surely me and my closest friend lost contact. It has now been two years after my high school graduation and I haven't talked to her in close to 6 months and that was just a simple hey how are you conversation. I have just graduated from college and already can tell that my closest friend and I are not talking as much. I know its only been a week but I've only talked to her like 3 times and it was maybe for 5 minutes. I just hope that I am completely wrong about my whole theory. I just felt like writing this, trying not to take it to serious, because I'm really hoping that I wrong.

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Fucking Posers

There are so many people out there who feel as if they have to change everything they are about just so they can fit in with some people. This annoys the hell out of me. This past weekend was some what amusing because some people that I have known, or at least I thought I knew just crack me up. I guess I missed the memo that said that the dress code for Saturday nights are mini skirts and halters and/or tanks, oh yeah don't forget the curly hair.
We all are individuals and there is no other person in this entire universe that has anything like ourselves, other then the materialistic things that we can buy. Its odd how pissed one can get if one walks into a room and the girl across the room has on the same top. And why does that person get mad, because that "bitch" now looks like you. If you bought the shirt, outfit, what ever the hell it is, you want to stand out, be unique...also known as an individual. Ok so now to my point...
4 girls, 4 similar outfits (just different variations of each) and then 3 with the same hair style.....What are you all trying to prove? That you have style? Well if so, then who's style? Obviously one called the other and was like "what are you wearing tonight" and then they called the other and the same question, and so on till you all have the same question/ answer.
I guess I just don't understand why you don't want to be yourself. Not saying that clothes make the person its just the whole persona that comes with the outfit. You are an individual. Do shit for yourself not so so-n-so will hopefully approve of your outfit or even yourself. I mean who the hell gives whoever you are trying to impress the right to say if you are "cool" or not. People are so fucking caught up in image that they loose sight of the more important things. Mainly the inner being. So many amazing and brilliant people are shunned because some person thinks they have the right to judge them. And I know that I am guilty of doing that, but things have changed and over the pass two years I have come to realize that the only person you have to please is yourself. If you spend all your time worrying about what so-n-so thinks then you are wasting your time and loosing out on life.
I guess society is the person that we are most trying to impress. But who is "society?" Who has set "societies" standards? How do you know if "society" approves of you? And do you really give two shits what society thinks about you? If your answer to the last question was a yes then you really need to stop and re-think what is most important to you. The way people perceive you by your image, or the way people perceive you by your inner person?
I'm not saying that we should all go around looking like slobs, I'm just saying, are you wearing that outfit because you really like and think it rocks, or are you wearing it so the "popular girl" or whoever will maybe talk to you, like you, approve of you?
To the four girls I mentioned earlier, this post IS NOT an attack on you. If anything I said upsets you then I do apologize, but maybe you should really think why it does bother you.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004


So many questions, but no one has any answers! Why? Why cant anyone answer my questions? I've always been told that good things come to those who wait. So how long do you wait? How do you know if you've waited too long, or if you haven't waited long enough? What if your "good thing" was something completely different then what you thought your "good thing" was going to be for waiting and you feel that you wasted all your time waiting on something that wasn't even worth waiting on. I just feel like I've been waiting FOREVER for certain things in my life. I'm getting to the point of just giving up on those things because after so long it's hard to keep believing.
Maybe waiting isn't the solution anymore, maybe its just going after what you want...who knows, I know I sure as hell dont.